okay so. its been over a year but im actually so back. i found out there's like literally a medical reason for why i've been exhausted for 5 years and we're fuckign fixing it now. which is crazy. for the first time in 5+ years ive spent the entire day out of bed. several days in a row. its a little surreal. a little upsetting. but mostly its greatt. i feel like the vitamin tumblr post.
anyways. there's like not much more to say. actually that's a complete lie there's like so much to say. i could talk for hours about how much i Fucking Hate doctors. but now's not the time cuz also sometimes doctors are good. i finally have the vitamin. all is well. the sky is clearing. the sun is shining. etc. etc. etc.
i have so much shit to do finally. now that im not laying in bed thinking about what i want to do i can actually just sit down and Do the Shit. expect to hear about it. over time. eventually. im making a language (ETA: like 5+ years), games, i wanna draw again, i wanna go for my photography walks again and more often... im taking it in steps but you have no idea how exciting it is to be able to think about doing things again and have it actually feel achievable.