i was cursed by a wizard but i finally broke the curse and now i can open vscode and edit website again to my heart's content. i tried writing like a "here's what ive been up to the past 11 months" update post but i quickly realized that i have lots of long rambles in me right now that need time and wouldnt fit as part of a post about Everything. and if i try to only write about smaller things its so many smaller things that it becomes unwieldy to try to summarize in a post anyways. like if i was gonna ramble about all music ive listened to since last it would take forever. and it would feel inauthentic because i only really wanna write about the music im excited about Right Now? but it would also feel weird to only write about what ive been listening to this month and excluding everything ive listened to in the past 11 months. as you can see, my situation is untenable. but i will persevere.

anyways this is just a blog post in order to establish that i am Here. next post will either be soon or not soon. depends on if i get cursed again.

loss

answer:

three days ago was the 17th of may! we celebrate that in norway because thats when a bunch of guys wrote a thing

i usually havent done much on the 17th of may because ive usually been isolated and not had many people near me to spend it with so its felt a little pointless to do anything. but now i have lots of friends who live close to me!! so i had plans for the whole day basically, from 8am to 2am!

8am was a breakfast at the rock venue i volunteer at. buuut i overslept so i missed it… i was soo heartbroken when i woke up at like 10am and realized i had missed it!!!! but luckily there were other plans, so it wasnt too bad!

at noon until like 8pm i had lunch and partied with a bunch of friends. everyone brought food so there was lots of delicious food and dessert to eat! i had this big black umbrella because i thought it would fit my cool black dress really well but it turned out to be smart because the sun was so strong it was nice to have some shade. other people kept coming under my umbrella too or borrowing it just to get some shade. i got lots of compliments on my look which makes me really wish i could go all-out on makeup every day without running out way too quickly!!!

at 9pm was a party at that rock venue i volunteer at! the 17th of may is also the birthday of the rock venue so its like a big event where they have like different prizes they hand out and stuff. and then we had a parade at midnight where we were the worst neighbours and just made as much noise as humanly possible while walking through the streets. it was fun.

AND THEN i got home at like 2am and the fire alarm in the student housing where i live had gone off which was great because that meant all my friends who live in that block were already outside and i got to talk to them for like an hour or two while i was still really drunk.

i finally hiked up a mountain again! and it made me remember holy shit this is like the best thing in the world theres literally nothing better than walking upwards why have i not been doing this every week??? i am posting this like 2 weeks after this hike and ive gone on one more hike since then, but didnt really take any photos on that one. i actually almost didnt even think to bring my camera to this hike but luckily a friend was like "oh you should bring your camera!" because like ive been talking so much about how i need to take photos more often and somehow i didnt put two and two together and think of bringing the camera on my own??

the hike was soo exhausting! this mountain has like the worst stairs i have ever used in my life. they spent like over a million dollars on it can u believe it. got straight up scammed. anyways. good hike!! i am definitely gonna go on another soon and bring my camera again!!! just have to find a time where i am NOT extremely stressed with exams… (i have an exam in… like 32 hours.) but at the same time my toxic trait is that any time im stressed about an exam i start thinking about this website again and THATS when i start posting and making improvements to it again. ive been thinking about ways to make posting more easier so i'll stop using tumblr for all my silly small posts but i have some things i havent figured out yet there (i could really easy make like a post editor for myself that could let me easily make a post from my phone, but uploading images without having access to my computer would be harder…) BUT now is NOT the time for that!!! i have to lock in and do the exams stuff!!!!!!

oh, and heres a little bonus picture. i took this one on my phone which has a completely fucked camera that makes it look way more moody and mysterious…

almost kinda wish i took a few more pictures with it!

last time i did like an update post was like 2 months ago. stuff's happened since then probably! who knows what… in this blog post, you and i will endeavour to remember my past. together. you're helping.

reading

i've started reading recently!!! i figured if i could get into watching movies after a long time of not being able to, then maybe i can get into reading also cuz thats a thing ive always wanted to do more!! "ok but what have you read" you ask? ummm

nevada

i read nevada! throughout most of my reading it i kinda thought i was gonna finish it thinking it was an ok book. but like the ending made me appreciate the book so much more and what it was going for. honestly a great book.

house of leaves

ive been reading house of leaves!! im at like page 150 rn and im really enjoying it although its been a couple of weeks since i last read any of it. def gotta read more at some point! im realizing i really dont know how to talk about book im reading beyond like "wow its great!!" because im like illiterate or something. but like i fucking love the format of house of leaves and i love how its like slowly building up and woawww

the blind owl

this one was recommended to me by a friend!! i have basically only read the translator's notes so far so like i am not capable of having a very formed opinion on this book. but im excited to read it!

listening

ok this is the hard one. its been 2 months!! ive listened to lots of stuff!!!!

as im writing this im listening to monarch of monsters by vylet pony for the first time!! really really good album how did i not find out about it sooner!!!!

been listening to a lot of men i trust and many rooms also lately. many rooms is like PERFECT music for any time i am Chilling. great music while high also imo

oh wait also femtanyl!!! thats also in the last 2 months. had a couple of weeks where i just listened to femtanyl non-stopp. really really love DOGMATICA, attacking vertical, and LOVESICK, CANNIBAL!. a lot of bangers in there!!! i also watched a movie solely because it was sampled in attacking vertical (u can read my review of that movie here)

oh oh oh and acloudyskye! acloudyskye is an artist i actually discovered like ages ago because of beat saber and i'd been meaning to get into their music for agessss but never got around to it! my fav album by far is What Do You Want!
Thief! on that album is soo good

other stuff??

idk theres other stuff too but idk how to categorize it! its hardd to recall what happened in the past and decide which things are worth mentioning

i have been making a lot of friends in my area lately! used to be sort of an unhappy isolated husk of a person but going out more and meeting more people has been soo great for me. i have my downs still but it helps with friends. its also a great change of pace to not always feel like im hopelessly dependent on like one singular person and if they ever stop talking to me my world will crumble

went to my first volunteer party at the cave a couple of days ago also! mayy have ended up drinking way too much at the preparty and getting sent home in a taxi after a couple of hours… but its ok! life is a series of lessons. this time the lesson was "dont drink an entire bottle of prosecco even though its yummy"
that was my first time being drunk also. it was fun even though i was probably a bother to everyone around me lmao

start of this uni semester has been a little bit rocky, which is usual. but i think ive got control of things now! struggled hard with the first batch of assignments but now i think my groups are a little more established so we'll be able to get started on the next assignments easier. this semester i've got two courses, one about like distributed systems and networking and one about like c++, c#, and .net. i think it'll go ok!! next two semesters will be my bachelor and then i'll be done.. finally!!!

gotta have someone watching you when ur watching movies

some pictures ive taken the past month-ish! i havent set aside any time for a real photography walk where i bring my nice camera and stuff, but sometimes ive seen something and gone "ohh that looks cool" and then taken a quick picture w my phone. theres been a lot of fog lately!!! makes everything look automatically cooler imo

im homee!!! which means i get to see tiara again :)

not much else happening! i did also update my movie diary page some more!!! now it has an rss feed! the latest movie i watched was the people's joker which i really liked. i love movies

im constantly in an existential crisis about how i should use my own blog. how often is too often to post? what should i post about?? idk!! heres what ive been up to lately. thats something i can definitely post about

movies

ive been getting really into movies lately. i used to hate movies. they felt too long and simultaneously too short to actually tell a whole story. it felt like i needed like a show thatd take me 6 months to finish in order to feel like i could actually get into the story. now im starting to feel the opposite! i cant handle long shows right now. i think its been really nice to just end a day with a movie. i dont have to commit to watching like 40 hours of a show to get the whole story, i can just sit down and see an entire story in 2 hours. and theres some really good movies out there!!! i feel like i used to not watch very good movies, but im really enjoying learning what i appreciate in a movie and discovering new directors. currently im really into the work of hirokazu kore-eda. two of his movies ive seen are after life and still walking. still walking was such a wonderful movie.

but because ive been making movie-watching into like a daily pasttime its made me unsure how i wanna deal with it on my blog!! it feels so spammy to make a new post every day about every movie i saw, which is what i wouldve been doing this week, because every movie i saw this week was like incredible and i had so many thoughts on all of them. im thinking of maybe making reviews of stuff ive seen into a separate thing on my website… probably with its own rss feed. i did also make a letterboxd, and i might continue to post there too, but i do really prefer having this stuff in my own little space on the internet. i think i will take some inspiration from letterboxd though, when i add a movie section to my website. i really like letterboxd's movie diary thing. i want it here.

-- oops i did this while writing this blog post. i have a page now for reviews of stuff ive watched!! /watching!! go check it out :3
i also have a little thing on the front page that shows my three recently watched movies. yayyyy

volunteering at a cave

i started volunteering at a cool local rock venue thats in a literal cave. thats been really cool!!! theres so many cool people there. every time i volunteer there at least one random person comes up to me and compliments me on my makeup which is a hugee confidence boost.

theres not much more to say about it. i like the cave. i thrive in the cave. i yearn for the cave. etc. etc. etc.

trying to use social media

ive been betraying my whole "refusing to use social media" thing lately. but this has also strangely coincided with feeling way more stressed every day!!! i started using mastodon more regularly recently because i wanted to see what ppl i dont hear from anymore since cohost shut down are up to. tried using bluesky too but that website is impossible for me. idk. i dont really like using social media websites!! ive been finding myself clicking these little apps obsessively way more than i'd like to and it does not really improve my day much. i do like seeing what some of the cool people i follow are up to, but most of it feels like noise to me.

i think a big problem for me is that ive changed in a way that just makes me not vibe with scrolling any platform regularly anymore. when i was so isolated from everything around me in the real world, and the internet was my only possible refuge for any sort of social interaction, i Needed social media. now its like, i'd rather just meet people in real life. as im slowly growing more confident in my own skin and finding spaces where i can be myself in the real world, i just dont want to spend much of my energy on-line. social media platforms always feel like they require too much of my energy now.

other stuff

i also had exams!! that shit went so fucking bad.

i got to The Vault for the first time which is way further than usual! usually i die two levels earlier at hiisi base. it was my first time not dying instantly at the jungle!

i had an awesome wand setup. i had a double shotgun thing going on, where i had two spells that shoot like a shotgun blast, and a thing that made it so that i'd fire both of those spells at once. and then when it got really crazy was when i added another spell that made it so that enemies i hit get like absolutely fucked by an endless barrage of lightning explosions. i literally killed everything in one hit, the only drawback was that i could only do the lightning explosion thing 20 times per level. when i got to The Vault i decided to remove the lightning explosion from my shotgun and put it on a different wand and i think this is the decision that killed me. if i had stuck with my awesome lightning explosion double shotgun i think i would've remained unstoppable.

noita is fun!

i went to a trans cafe meetup today! well actually yesterday. it was cool! i got to speak to some cool ppl, and it was nice being in a space with so many people that were all trans. it felt safe. i'll definitely be going next time too!

but actually this is just an excuse to post another selfie because i am kind of self-obsessed lately.

my confidence has been good lately! and ive been perfecting my makeup technique more and more. i can do a cool look in like 10 minutes now!! i think its awesome how much better ive gotten at it in like the less than 2 weeks ive been doing my makeup daily. im proud of myself!

in other news my laptop charger is 100% kaputt now. bummer! but the positive thing is that i dont spend any time in bed now, so i dont have as big of a need for the laptop.. it is kind of inconvenient for uni, but theres barely any lectures lately anyways cuz we're entering exam preparation period. oh god i have to prepare for exams… i think i'll be fine, exam-wise, but its always scary

also here's some other stuff i've been up to because i feel like writing about it now:

• i started exercising recently! ive not been happy with my health for quite some time. i miss being able to go up mountains on a whim without breaking a sweat, and i decided to finally do something about it by exercising regularly! its been good
• im trying to get good at sleeping. my psychologist does warn me that its usually harder for autistic ppl to get normal sleep patterns tho.. so we'll see how that goes
• also, i have an autism diagnosis apparently? this is a long story, but i always thought my diagnosis was "Unspecified Developmental Disorder" or something for reasons that are complicated and silly, so like even tho i knew i am autistic, i thought i didnt have an official diagnosis. but at some point i guess it changed into being an actual autism diagnosis? (well, actually "asperger's syndrome", but under newer diagnostic criteria that we havent adopted yet that would be "autism spectrum disorder" instead)
• speaking of autism, i started reading unmasking autism! i heard really good things about this book. i borrowed it from the library. i also borrowed different, not less from the library. i have to read both of them before the end of the month! oops, maybe i shouldnt have borrowed both at once!!!
• ive been playing extreme amounts of dead by daylight. whenever i play killer, ive been playing pinhead. i love that guy

people kept asking me what i was dressed as and when i told them im just dressed as myself they'd be like "whoaaa you look so awesome!!!"

i dyed my hair again!! i really wanted to dye it again since the previous purple had turned into a green-blueish colour instead… i used schwarzkopf mystic violet! it looks mostly black i think, but in some lighting u can tell its purple. which is what i wanted!! i only bought one box when i should've bought two, so im happy it worked out anyways! theres no like, obvious big spots i missed. just some small places that arent usually visible!!!

its soo fucking cool im so happy with it.

i only bought 2 stickers, and got one for free. it was so overwhelming and there was so much stuff, i ended up not buying anything else! but im thinking that i might buy some black hairdye with the unspent money i had set aside for this…. especially since my current dye is sort of disappearing, and i want my hair to look as cool as possible for the next goth event

oh, also theres a bigger goth event happening at the cave in like 3 weeks, so the black market felt sort of like a nice way to prepare for that, since ive never been at the cave before. i saw soo many cool people also, im gonna try to have the courage to talk to some of the cool ppl when the next goth event happens!

ok but what do you mean by "the cave"???

oh, sorry! "the cave" is a rock venue in the area i live. its in a literal cave that used to be a bomb shelter!!

one of my recent deaths was caused by my character having "quantum jitters", which meant that sometimes when i used abilites, two spacetime vortexes would spawn near me, which will transport anything in its path to a random location. the inevitable happened, and i got caught in my own spacetime vortex. "this cant be too bad," i thought, before looking at the log and seeing it say i was 30 strata deep. i didnt even know that was possible! ive only been, like, 3 strata deep! i boldly persevered nonetheless, and began my climb up, before i met this really strong guy who literally could kill me with one punch. i think i had been transported to a pretty high-level area… i evaded him for a bit, but eventually he killed me.

i think im gonna write a longer post about this game after i beat it. but i think that'll take a while!

ok now im gonna try to sleep. tomorrow im going to a black market in a cave and im excited for it!

i bought myself some new dresses for my birthday (which was on the 14th!), heres two of them :3

ive had wayyy too few dresses up until now, but now i can finally live the dream of exclusively wearing cool dresses

hi hi! this is so random but i've been wanting to get into website creation/design and am really unfamiliar with the technical side of things. i found y'all's site through the toki pona lessons page and overall liked the site design, so i wanted to ask what you two used to build the website and if there are any resources you might recommend for someone hoping to learn? thank you :p

answer:

hi! thanks for the ask!!!

i'll answer what i use to make websites now at the bottom of the post, but the way i do it is definitely not something i'd recommend starting out. its very needlessly overcomplicated, when you can accomplish a lot of stuff with less! so i'll tell u about how i got started with websites instead!

how i started websites

the way to start out is basically just learning about HTML and CSS! javascript might be something you wanna learn about later, but you dont need it early on.

HTML is what determines the stuff that's on your website, and how its generally structured, and CSS changes how it looks!

when i started with websites, i benefited a lot from w3schools.com. they have an html tutorial and a css tutorial. when i started making websites, i didnt go through these entire tutorials to begin with, i just started making the website i wanted, and only read the amount i needed from the tutorials to do, like, the next basic step. so like, first i made a heading that said "hi welcome to my website", then i added some links and styled them, etc.

but the most important thing is searching things up! for basically any challenge you'll ever face, there will be someone out there who's asked how to do it online! if you search "how to make text pink css", there will be tons of helpful results!

the last tool i love, is just right-clicking people's websites and clicking "inspect". that'll show you their exact html and css, and its a great way to learn how to do cool things, by just seeing exactly how someone else did it! it wont work very well on all websites though. for example, it wont work on websites that use static site generators.

speaking of static site generators, that might be better than writing the html yourself, depending on your goals!

static site generators

static site generators will generally let you generate a whole website using markdown files and styling! its especially useful if you'll have a lot of pages that will be structured similarly, like a blog! ive never really used a static site generator, but zoe used hugo for a while, which let her make a pretty good website! the drawback of this compared to writing everything from scratch, is that you'll have less direct control over every detail.

ive also seen some people using bearblog, which (from what i understand) is a really lightweight thing for if all you're doing is blogging. i assume thats not the case with you, though, so i think you'd probably benefit more from writing the html and css yourself, or using hugo. personally i really loved the feeling of making a whole website from the ground up in html, so im biased towards that. but zoe loved hugo.

how i do website now

since you asked how i make my website, i'll answer that too! but note that this is needlessly complicated, and i dont think the vast majority of people would benefit from making websites the way i do.

to make my website, i use nuxt, nuxt content, daisyui, and tailwindcss!

nuxt is like an entire website framework, and it can do a lot of stuff. its especially useful to make, like, very dynamic websites. nuxt content is an addon to nuxt, that lets me write posts in markdown files! i like it. daisyui and tailwindcss let me easily do like, responsive design (the website adapting to smaller screen sizes), and have a darkmode and a lightmode. but you can do all that in normal html and css too. the only thing you cant do w/ normal html and css is write posts as markdown files, but even then theres easier ways to accomplish the same thing, like with hugo or bearblog.

i also found nuxt useful for making my toki pona course, because it let me streamline the process for accepting translations, and let me simplify some things that were kind of a headache when i was making it from scratch. i do think i couldve solved many of those problems with hugo instead though!

that's all i could think of at the moment! if you have any more questions, feel free to ask!! whether its in the comments of this post, or another ask, or e-mail, i'll be happy to help!

i really really love lies and deception and deceiving and lying. i would almost go as far as to say that lying is a special interest of mine but that sounds kind of weird so i dont say that usually. but i think making believable lies is like the most satisfying thing in the world so i love games where you get to lie to people!!! cuz obviously u cant just go around lying in real life. thats mean…

but wow town of salem 2 is so different from town of salem 1! lying is like way more complicated, theres so much for me to learn!! in the first game it was usually just "oh im serial killer, and if investigator looks at me the game will tell him im either serial killer or doctor, so i'll claim doctor". now its just like! claim whatever!!! and just try to be convincing!! theres wayyy more possibilities….

i won my first game yesterday as an evil role. but the messed up thing is that i didnt even really have to lie!! i was kinda just subtly pushing attention onto others so ppl never even asked me what role i was until it was too late for them…

some photos i took in the last year, but never posted!

i really wanna go out and take some more photos again soon, especially since people have told me such nice things about my photography lately :3

actually no i was watching kamen rider kuuga like an hour ago and then i thought "wow this show is cool!!! i wanna write a short post about it to my blog" and then i had an existential crisis about whether or not im allowed to write short blog posts, and then i spent some time to perfect how i present shortform posts (now i can have posts without titles, and short posts will be shown in their entirety on the feed on the frontpage) and NOW i can finally post about kamen rider kuuga.

so anyways im 4 episodes in and kamen rider kuuga is really fun. it has like SUCH bad special effects its so charming (heres a clip) and the characters are fun guys. the main character is such a guy i love him.

i started watching the show because of this post by azure from nuclear strawberry! this show ROCKS.

i'll be writing about what ive been listening to, playing, watching, doing, etc., and also about cool stuff ive seen online!

listening

i checked out prior panic recently! really love their music. i discovered them because i was exploring different blogs, and came across aloe's website. on their links i like section they have a link to this band! apparently they're in a new incarnation of this band, and im really excited to hear recordings from that new lineup!

i also listened to HONEYMOON PHASE [LIMERANCE] by vylet pony on repeat like 30 times. that song's good!!! all of vylet pony's music is.

and my obsession with lesbian bed death has not ceased yet. pretty but mental and fury have been some of the favourites

playing

ive not been playing that much lately!

ive played a bit of hoptix when ive had time. for my broader thoughts on hoptix, i have a whole blog post about that! but to summarize i think its a really good game and i like to play it for a bit when im at my desktop computer and i have the time.

and i started playing super lesbian animal rpg! ive not gotten that far into slarpg yet, but i chose the power of love! i couldnt possibly pick anything else. thats basically where i got to when i last played it, though! im excited to actually start playing it when i have time!!! and also slarpg is one of the best game acronyms out there

i found out recently that town of salem 2 is free apparently? i loved town of salem 1, even played ranked sometimes because i got soo into the mechanics and meta and everything, so this is great news for me. the only reason i hadnt been playing town of salem 2 up until this point was cuz i thought it cost money. so i havent actually played any of it lately, but i know im going to!

watching

i finished watching star trek: discovery with zoe! thoroughly enjoyed the whole show, although, as zoe put it, the last season did feel a bit too much like star wars. it feels like normally the over-arching plot threads in star trek are more like, conflicts with big scary empires, or less identifiable threats, and i like that. but star trek discovery's last season spent most of the season with the main threat being like, a pair of ne'er-do-wells. like, sure, they are stealing technology that could destroy the entire world, but it feels wrong that its like. two guys.

they make it more interesting towards the end, and i still thought those two ne'er-do-wells were compelling, but i definitely preferred the earlier seasons to this one. the red angel arc in season 2 was for sure the best, the way everything came together at the end was so satisfying. i also really enjoyed gabriel lorca's arc, and georgiu's arc throughout her stay on the show.

its not a show or a movie, but ive also been watching northernlion. i dont know what it is about the guy, but watching him do wordle-like games or cine2nerdle (a pvp game where you and the opponent take turns naming movies that have some sort of connection with the previous movie until one of you cant come up with anything new) is very relaxing. ive had him on in the background a lot while doing other stuff.

doing

ive been working a lot on this website! after cohost went read-only it was kinda like "oh shit, i have nothing to do now" and then i went into an intense state of hyperfixating on this here website.

the outside world has been way too overwhelming lately, so tinkering with this website has been a really nice escape from that stuff. it feels like website stuff is like the only thing i can do right now where everything i do feels awesome. im super proud of the comments and the asks! and the new colour scheme (#A67BFF is my new BFF colour!!!!) makes me so happy! its good to have something like this. i am so happy websites exist.

i also made this 88x31 button, bc i wanted a button that says "i <3 shinx"

oh! and also i added a table of contents and changed the styling of headings in posts. this was not easy, and i will save the rambling about it for another post.

cool stuff i've come across!

sudoku xv

sudoku xv is a fun twist on sudoku, by keeri. normal sudoku rules apply, but in addition adjacent squares are marked with a v or an x if they add up to 5 or 10. i did a couple, very fun to solve, although i wish it had pencil marks so i didnt have to take a screenshot and solve it in gimp…..

false knees

false knees is an adorable webcomic about birds. the world it creates makes me happy. i discovered it on ant's link page!

ant.computer

speaking of ant, their website, ant.computer, is really nice. their latest blog post is about the latest changes they made to their website, and i thoroughly enjoyed reading about the challenges they faced and their approach to making their website. im so happy websites exist!!

citadark's poems

i came across citadark lately, and checked out some of his writing. im really glad i did! his poems are really good, and especially CONTENT WARNINGS (cws: suicide, death, abuse) really resonated with me. the way he writes about these topics really speaks to me in a way i havent seen many other works do before.

i also read two of his other poems, sun break and a siren's lament. both are distinctly more positive than CONTENT WARNINGS, while still approaching many of the same subject matters. i especially liked a siren's lament, which he describes as "a love poem about wanderlust, childhood trauma, and surviving together with someone.". i really do think his poems are beautiful, and im excited to read more of his writing when i have time.

fixing you by endlessforms

this post is a year old on a platform that soon wont exist anymore, but fixing you by @endlessforms on cohost was a wonderful story. it's about a robot girl who's getting repaired by her technician girlfriend, and it makes really good use of styling to make the story visually interesting! the story is really cute, and im in love with @endlessforms' writing style. im sad that i have no idea where to find more of its writing in the future. but at least there is more of its writing still on cohost, and i'll definitely be reading that in the future!

i discovered this story from saying goodbye to cohost by ash! its a good post that reflects around cohost, what was good, what was bad, etc.. i really liked it!

that's all!

thank u for reading this. i hope i'll do this again sometime! let me know what you think or about other cool stuff uve seen, i'd love to hear about it!

tysm for the compliment ;_; i LOVE your photography so much….. BIG insp as a newbie who just got 1 digicam and 1 35mm cam recently :j

answer:

tysm!!! makes me really happy to hear someone likes my photography!! im really a newbie too so its awesome to hear my photos can be an inspiration :3

i made one! i struggled a bit with figuring out what i wanted to do with it, but im happy with it now! i tried to make it look sorta like my website :3

it originally looked like this:

but i wasnt really happy with it!

so then i made this:

i decided to mess around with making it animated, and then i also put way more effort into the text! i was surprised how easy all the letters were, except e. e is the bane of my existence. its so hard to make a good looking e. i tried to make all the letters look sort of like a pixel version of the display font i use on this website!

let me know if you link to my website so i can link back (or just cuz it'll make me happy!)

im also replacing that cool sites list i used to have with a wall of 88x31 buttons. replicating people's website styling to make buttons on my website was cool and all, but it did take me a lot of time to do! and i think its better if there isnt so much friction between "oh, i should link to this website." and actually linking to it.

im still figuring out what i'll do about the ones who dont have a button! i thought maybe i could make a little makeshift button to put on my website in those cases, but maybe that's weird? is it? let me know!!!!

if one day everyone on earth could only eat 1 food item for the rest of their lives what would yours be?

answer:

hii! thank u for the ask :3

its a hard question! theres many angles to look at it from.

my first instinct was "oh, my favourite food is carbonara, so its gotta be carbonara". but if you think about that for a little longer, imagine how annoying that'd be!! i would have to create a proper warm meal every time i was hungry and i would probably get bored of it sooner or later! so i think the favourite food approach is intuitive, but too naive…..

what i think the strat is, is to pick like a really normal food. i usually eat bread with some simple topping like nutella or cheese, or crispbread with caviar. but thats yet another trap, you see! because you gotta make sure its not too boring, because then eating will feel like a chore.

you could solve this problem by making it even more boring, like if you went for like a smoothie approach. just like, a balanced smoothie that you can just chug in like a minute and then you're good to go. sure, its boring, but its also effortless. i'd probably want a mango flavoured smoothie, thats the best smoothie flavour i think…

or you could do like a tasty sandwich. one thats not too much effort to make, but thats still fun to eat, and nutritious. or maybe a salad? but i dont think salads have ever appealed much to me, so it'd have to be a sandwich. maybe a chicken sandwich of some sort? or if not that, then at least one that has some ham and cheese, along with other nice things.

uhhh i dont know what my answer is though. maybe carbonara.

testament is a character from guilty gear! they're the character i main in guilty gear strive, and i just think they're really cool.

guilty gear strive was my first guilty gear game, having first heard about the series because of ~~brisket~~ ~~basket~~ ~~biscuit~~ bridget. i really wish i had found the series earlier, because everything about it has captivated me. i wish i couldve been autistic about previous entries in the series when they were new. but thats a topic for another post, because i'd love to write a broader post about my relationship with fighting games, and how guilty gear strive is the game that's made me finally able to play one after avoiding them like the plague for many years. and theres so much else to rant about in this game too, like oh my god the soundtrack, the characters, the everything… i'll go over all that in a future post.

testament

okay, now. testament. testament was the second character i ever tried out when i got guilty gear strive, after bridget. bridget was an obvious first character to play as, since she was how i found out about the game in the first place! after playing her for a little bit, and playing through her arcade story (which i have a lot to say about, but i don't know if i'll ever get to it), i looked at the roster to see if anyone else appealed. i thought may looked like a fun character, and giovanna is cool even though she's a cop,

but okay come on what are we doing. there's a non-binary gear with a huge fucking scythe.

like hello? of course i'm gonna play as the non-binary gear with the scythe.

playing as testament

every move testament does looks fucking sick and they feel so fucking good to play as. as far as i understand, they're not considered the most competitively viable character to play as, they're just not the best zoner. but, like, that really doesn't matter to me.

when i play as testament, i get into this really satisfying flow of just absolutely fucking up the opponent with various mixes of the, like, three different moves that testament has. and every time i play guilty gear strive im just trying to get that awesome feeling again, where the opponent just stands absolutely no chance of getting anywhere near me.

and ive not been playing the game for very long, to be clear! theres a lot of combo theory i still want to properly learn, tricks i wanna learn, etc.!
so like, right now i get to feel super fucking powerful, even though i literally am just winging it. imagine how good it'll feel when i actually know what im doing!!
i guess the scary bit there is that my opponent might know what theyre doing too by then… but honestly the matches where it gets really close, where i actively learn new things from my opponent, etc., is even more fun that absolutely destroying someone. both feel really satisfying!

okay but what about testament, the idea

or; tiger poorly recollects random bits of what she's read about testament, thus telling you of her own flawed idea about who testament is.

my favourite thing about testament is that their character development from previous games is like, going from being a spiteful, angry, and hurt main villain in the games before. which like, is reasonable. they were turned into a gear, brainwashed, killed their own dad, humans aren't exactly the nicest to gears, etc. etc. etc.. but they go from that to being someone who's learned to live life and not let everything bad stop them from enjoying the good. i love that testament is like, incredibly powerful, but they just wanna go for a relaxing walk. they just want to experience nice things.

i thought their entire arcade story was really pleasant. obviously, the arcade stories were really limited in what they could do, but i think it has some quotes that really stuck with me and made me appreciate testament for more than just their huge scythe. the entire plot of the arcade is basically just, testament tries to go for a walk, and everyone is like "what the fuck are you doing this place isnt safe for you", and then proceeds to attack testament to prove that this place isnt safe for them. the "rival" in this one, the recurring character no matter what path you go down, is chipp, who just gets increasingly amazed at testament's endless resolve to just go for a walk. my favourite exchange is this one:

Chipp: That's so.. normal!!
Testament: I AM NORMAL! What, does a life need to have some grand purpose to be worth living?

it's a very simple sentiment, but i really appreciate it. you're right, testament. i can just live life for the sake of living it. it's so easy to spend every moment of life worrying if you're doing something Meaningful with it, and to forget that Living Life is meaningful enough already.

whoaa whats this?!

answer:

i have asks now!!
i realized i can use the same system that i use for comments, to also have asks! yay!!!!

the form for sending me asks is on the front page, right below all my links! i dont expect it to get used that much, but i thought its a fun little thing to have :3

they pretty much work exactly the same as comments, except i can easily answer them in a post like this! so its great for, like… asking me stuff!

up until now i've had my cute little email me button, but i discovered a way to do comments in a way thats fun for me. so, i did it! comments support markdown and html, so go wild. in theory u could do css crimes, in my comments!! just dont do anything malicious cuz then im just not gonna approve ur comment…

also theres replies!!! for a moment there i wasnt sure if i was gonna be able to add replies, but then i realized that its not so hard actually!

all of it was simultaneously p difficult and incredibly easy. the way my comments work now is that when you comment something, it sends a post request to my server, which then sends a pull request containing your comment to my github repository. and then i can approve or delete the pull request!

i also still think people should totally email me if they want to! my email is still available on the front page of my website, and i think its nice to still have a way to speak more privately if ppl prefer it.
but comments are nice because they feel a lot more… social, i guess? cuz people other than me can be part of a conversation, if they want to. i think its nice to have that option!

cohost is officially actually read only. its been read only for like 24 hours. i wrote a post about cohost shutting down earlier this month, when it was first announced, but i was so stuck in "improving website in preparation for cohost shutdown" mode that i didnt really process my feelings around the shutdown yet. and then i had a trip to denmark where i met lots of people, and then i had a bunch of stuff to do when i was home. but now i dont have anything to do, and the fact that i cant scroll cohost now that i finally have time to chill is really being Felt. im really gonna miss cohost.

ive been trying the alternatives for a bit. i made a bluesky account before the shutdown was even announced, because i wanted to see what it was like. but i could never imagine using bluesky as a main social media. i made a fedi account again, after i left fedi for cohost ages ago because i just found that it was impossible to make my feed on fedi even remotely pleasant to scroll. i think i could make fedi work, but im kind of finding that i just… dont want to? i really just dont have the motivation to use any of these websites anymore.

ive got a bunch of rambles written down about why i think im not motivated to use these other websites, about what the others are lacking that made cohost so nice. the lack of numbers made all the interactions more authentic, cohost felt like a space where i was safe to express myself however i wanted, and people would interact with me because of shared interests much more than on other websites. there are people who i would probably never get to become friends with if i had met them on like, twitter or something instead, because there was no pressure to gain more Numbers on cohost.

but that doesnt really matter, does it?
one thing that hangs over my experience on cohost is that its not really about "what made cohost so nice", its "what made cohost so nice for me". because there were lots of people who did not get to feel safe on cohost. lots of people left the website because they could not find a community that was safe for them, lots of people left because they were harassed endlessly on cohost. and like, the one nice thing about cohost was that it was run by people who cared. but that doesnt help when you see unchecked racism every time you open the website, i can only imagine it makes it feel worse.
so, like, cohost was really nice. but only to some. and i really hope that whoever gives it a shot next tries to fix cohost's real issues, not made up issues like "you shouldnt pay workers well". i want a space where everyone can feel safe, and i will not settle for any website with major flaws anymore. its just not worth it.

so i think you wont be finding me active in any of the other websites. id much rather just blog on my own little website.

but that said, i hope this wont mean the end of the internet being a social space to me! im optimistic, because lots of people have created blogs, and my rss feed has so many people now!! im really hoping that i'll still continue to discover new cool people through their blogs!

and most importantly, i hope that people will still talk to each other. i hope that everyone who makes a blog adds an accessible way for others to reach out to them, so i can let them know my thoughts, and talk to them more! i loved that people were much less afraid of commenting on cohost, and i dont want that to die. some people add comment sections to their blogs, and i have an "email me ur thoughts" button, and i really hope more people will add things like this!

and also, btw, i really hope people will use my little "email me ur thoughts" button! even if your thought is as simple as "woaw cool post", i'd love to hear it! and i mean it!!

i wanna start writing posts about games i like, and other things i like also! here's the first one. its about hoptix!!

hoptix is a game i found out about through posts on cohost. seeing the ocassional gifs of the game made me excited about it, it looked cool, rocket is a cute bnuyy, and i love games where you can go FAST!! i used to really enjoy dustforce, and trackmania (especially full speed maps), because theres just something awesome about doing tricks and going fast.

recently it released in early access, because of cohost shutting down. hoptix's community is essentially a cohost community, so they wanted to make sure that the people who were the most excited for the game could celebrate and enjoy the game together as a community before cohost's shutdown. im really happy about that decision! i think that seeing other people enjoying the game too always adds to the experience of playing a new game, and im glad i got to experience the game with other ppl on cohost.

hoptix is pretty short! i beat all the levels that are currently available in like, 1 hour? but dont let that fool you. theres so many ways to traverse through each level, and experimenting with movement is fun! its not a game you play for 30 hours in a weekend and then never pick up again, its a game you pick up ocassionally for some fun zoomies every once in a while, for as long as you want.

the game never punishes you for bonking into a ceiling, or not knowing where that last target is, or anything like that. its entirely about exploring really beautiful levels, while listening to a really good soundtrack, and just doing the moves that feel right. theres so much skill expression thats possible, but the game never pressures you into playing any particular way. you get to decide whats cool! its really nice compared to other games ive played, where itll constantly tell you that you need to get better, the win condition always gets moved further up, until you're like, the best player in the world or whatever. but in hoptix you win just by playing. you got from point a to point b however you wanted, and thats a win!

rocket is just cool, you cant do anything about it. no matter what you make them do, it will feel cool. and when you discover something really cool, you can hit a button to record a gif of it and share it with your friends! and thats what games should be about, i think. just sharing the stuff you found cool with your friends.

CHECK OUT THE GAME ON STEAM ITS REALLY GOOD!!!!

other cool sites

today i added a section to the right on the home page that links to lots of cool ppl's pages! i decided to style each button to look like each person's website, which is really fun! it gives me an excuse to peek at others' css.. i already learned some things i didn't know before! i didn't know before how much fun looking at someone else's css could be! but like, websites are a great form of personal expression, and there's things you'll notice when you peek at the way someone styled their website, i think… idk, if you're weird like me i recommend peeking at ppl's css more often! it's fun!!

i also really like styling the buttons like this bc it lets me express how cool i think these ppl's websites are, by highlighting the bits i find coolest in my own recreation.. does that make sense? idk!

there's a couple of ppl there now, but i hope to add a lot more soon! the one downside to styling each button the way i do is that it does take me like 20 minutes to add one person…

tags

i spent the past few days adding a tagging system to my posts. i used to have a really messy system of subdirectories, and things could only really be categorized as one "thing". but now i have tags, and every post can have as many tags as it wants! so instead of my photography just being photography, it can also be tagged w the camera i used! all my art can be tagged w more specific art-related tags! and if a piece of art is somehow gamedev related, it can be tagged that too! that was impossible before!!

i'm really satisfied with how tags work now.

i also added a system where some tags don't show up in the initial list, but if you pick another tag which has posts w that tag, then they'll show up! so every camera i own doesn't show up in the tag list until you click photography, for example… i wanted to try to make the tag list as uncluttered as possible.

pagination

i've heard that Loading Every Single Post All At Once is called "bad". that's what i used to do! but after much blood, sweat, and tears, i now have pages. pages was not as hard as i thought it'd be to add! the actual pagination itself wasn't so bad, cuz there's lots of ppl who have written articles with the title "How To Create Blog With Pagination Using Nuxt Content"

the hard part

the HARD PART was getting the newfangled pages to actually load when i built the website!

you see, i use a thing called "Nuxt Content" to create this little website ur looking at. when i make changes to the website, i run the website locally in a development server so i can look at it before i publish it online. this development server can load any page on the website. HOWEVER, when i want to upload the website to the World wide Web, i have to generate Static pages. these pages can't dynamically ask a server like "hey uhh the user tried to go to a page i dont know, is that real?", so instead the static site generator tries to visit every single link on your website in order to create all the pages someone visiting your page will need.

now, all the pages of my blog are linked on the website, but for some reason the static site generator wouldn't recognize it! i still don't know why. i never found a solution

luckily, all hope was not lost. the static site generator does generously let you tell it to generate static pages for specific urls, even if they're not linked anywhere. so what i did was that i created a script that creates a list of every page from /?page=0 to /?page=100, and also for each tag creates a list of every page from /?page=0&tag=tag to /?page=100&tag=tag. this is incredibly stupid but it does work. the static site generator diligently checks every single one of these urls even though 99% of them are empty (i only have like 3 pages total.. but its useful to future proof these things :p)

the future

i JUST had an idea. like. just now as i was about to be done writing this post. right now i have this other section of my website that's fully separated from this one, /likes. this whole time i've been thinking like "yeah it's cool that i have this whole website with this cool tagging system and all that, but the likes section? that'll just have to stay separate forever" no it doesn't!!!! i'm gonna start working on making the /likes section no longer separate.

why did i get this idea just now? because i'm listening to the Heathers: The Musical soundtrack and i thought like "oh i really wanna write about Heathers: The Musical, my favourite musical" but then i was like ah darn, too bad that the likes section is a messy system of subsections and it's really not worth it to create a new section just for ranting about my favourite musical and- YOU FOOL!!! THAT'S THE WHOLE POINT OF THE TAGGING SYSTEM!!!!!! THE LIKES SECTION MUST BECOME ONE WITH THE REST OF THE WEBSITE!!!!!!

i'm not sure yet if everything in the likes section will survive the change. there's some stuff that i think won't. i think i want to minimize the amount of things i have that is just like, a list. so idk if i'll list every artist i like the way i do now? but maybe i'll make like a single blog post, that i can update over time, that lists all my favourite music. yeah. that makes sense. and like, there's some things in there that right now are just like a small part of a list, but i could actually write an entire blog post about them and i'm being stopped from doing that by my own poor website design!!

ohh you know what i should do? i should write some tag descriptions. it'd be cool if you clicked a tag and then a little description for that specific tag could show up. ok now im just doing a stream of consciousness ramble about all the things i wanna do with my website. WEBSITES ARE FUN!!!!!!!

bye bye! thanks for reading all that!

https://lipu-sona.comforttiger.space

in 2022 i made a course that covers my style of toki pona. lots of people use it, and it's even been translated into three other languages! it's pretty cool

backstory

i made this one in 2022! toki pona is one of my special interests, and i really wanted to share it w my girlfriend at the time. but i realized one huge problem: no good toki pona courses existed! there were several courses out at the time, but i had problems with all of them

my problem with the course that i personally used (jan Misali's 12 days of toki pona) was that it sort of just skipped, like, important grammatical rules? i didn't know what a preverb was until several months after i had finished the course! the way the course explains preverbs like "wile" literally actively impeded my ability to understand that preverbs were a thing, because jan Misali explained it as "you don't need e after wile because it's an indirect object", which like, no? thats wrong.

anyways, i don't really fault jan Misali for that. they set a goal to make an entire toki pona course in only 12 days, of course the episodes are gonna be rushed. but there was no way i could recommend it to my girlfriend.

the other big course at the time was jan Lentan's lipu sona pona. for a while, i thought this one was good because everyone recommended it, and i was planning on teaching my girlfriend toki pona using this course. but then i read it. and, its not like theres anything wrong with it, its just… jan Lentan's course focuses on teaching the learner as many different styles as possible. if different people have different styles when it comes to the topic of the lesson, jan Lentan will tell you about all of them! and sometimes they might even overstate how common certain niche stylistic choices are.

my problem with this is really just that i don't think it's the right approach to teaching. i prefer to teach one style, and teach it well, and then the learner should be encouraged to experiment themselves after they understand the fundamentals.

and that's why i made my own course! i wanted one that focused on teaching you one possible style of toki pona (specifically, i went for a mix of my own style and the official toki pona book's style), a course that doesn't gloss over important topics, while still being concise.

today, my course is luckily not the only course i like. i also like mun Kekan San's course. i think the nice thing is that mun Kekan San's approach to teaching is the polar opposite to my conciseness, and i think that's good! some people will want long explanations of things, others will want concise explanations. mun Kekan San doesn't fall into pitfalls of overexplaining niche styles, and instead spends a lot of time explaining the important stuff.

design goals for my course

when i started making my course, i tried to be deliberate in how i constructed it. i wanted the order the lessons were placed in, and the order the words were taught in, to help the learner as much as possible. i start with teaching the most basic sentence structures, and then slowly cover more and more advanced topics. i also weighed each lesson's importance vs. its difficulty, and i tried to avoid having a lot of very difficult lessons in a row. when i picked which words should be taught in each lesson, i tried to make sure to pick words that were related to the lesson topic somehow. for example, when teaching about direct objects, i included obvious transitive verbs like "to love", and "to build". i also tried to make sure that words which would be easier for english speakers to remember the meaning of, were spread out evenly among all the courses.

for the actual lessons, my goal was to cover everything, but cover it concisely. this was mostly because i thought that's what would work best for my girlfriend, but also because i prefer writing shorter explanations. when i write long explanations i feel like i'm just repeating the same stuff over and over again.

i made sure to include a lot of example sentences to make up for the brevity, and tried to make them visually interesting. i mark relevant parts of speech in the toki pona sentence and the english translation, so it's easier to understand the connection. not everyone knows what a direct object is, so i hoped this might help grasp the concept easier.

i made two userstyles, one that changes the colour scheme and stuff to make goblin.band feel more like cohost, and one that removes numbers. feel free to install one or the other or both!

i've not tested them that much, so while it should look good when looking at profile pages and at your timeline, i can't guarantee it'll look good everywhere else, although it's probably fine. the no numbers userstyle shouldn't be able to cause any issues though

how to use

you can go in goblin.band's settings > theme, and plop the css from the two codeblocks into the custom css field. this requires no extensions and should work on any platform that goblin.band works on.

if you can though, i recommend getting an extension like stylus (firefox, chrome), because that way you can disable the theme much quicker, in case it makes a page unreadable.

no numbers

this one is simple. it removes numbers. let me know if i missed any numbers!

you can copy paste the css below, or install it from userstyles.world

.count, .noteCount * > b, .noteCount > b, .status * > b, ._tab_qvmq5_1._tabActive_qvmq5_14._button > span {
    display: none !important;
}

.status {
    font-size: 130%;
}

cohost theme

this one changes the colour scheme to feel more like cohost. let me know if anything's broken, and i'll fix it if i ever have time!

you can copy paste the css below, or install it from userstyles.world

ONE IMPORTANT THING: use the goblin night theme when using this userstyle. if you use any other theme, it will look bad!

* {
    --postBg: rgb(255, 255, 255);
    --postFg: rgb(25, 25, 25);
    --notWhite: rgb(255, 249, 242);

    --accent: rgb(131, 37, 79) !important;
    --accent2: rgb(255, 171, 92);
    --bg: rgb(25, 25, 25) !important;
    --accentDarken: rgb(91, 26, 55) !important;
    --accentLighten: rgb(171, 48, 103) !important;
    --accentFg: var(--postBg);
    --accent2Fg: var(--postFg);

    --accentedBg: rgba(131, 37, 79, 0.15) !important;
    --focus: rgba(131, 37, 79, 0.3) !important;
    --acrylicBg: rgba(25, 25, 25, 0.5) !important;
    --fgTransparentWeak: rgba(25, 25, 25, 0.75) !important;
    --fgTransparent: rgba(25, 25, 25, 0.5) !important;
    --fgHighlighted: rgb(33, 33, 33) !important;
    --fgOnAccent: var(--postFg) !important;
    --divider: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0.1) !important;
    --indicator: var(--accent2) !important;
    --navIndicator: var(--accent2) !important;
    --buttonBg: var(--accent2) !important;
    --buttonFg: var(--accent2Fg);
    --buttonGradateA: var(--accent2) !important;
    --buttonGradateB: var(--accent2) !important;
    --buttonHoverBg: var(--accent) !important;
    --mention: var(--indicator) !important;
    --mentionMe: var(--mention) !important;
    --shadow: transparent !important;
    --swutchOnBg: var(--accent) !important;
    --swutchOnFg: var(--postFg) !important;
    --swutchOffBg: var(--bg) !important;
    --swutchOffFg: var(--postFg) !important;
}

/* button */
._button.inline:hover,
._button.post:hover::before,
.follow-button:hover,
.header._button:hover,
._formRoot * ._button:hover {
    filter: brightness(90%) !important;
    background-color: var(--buttonBg) !important;
}

.pxhvhrfw > button {
    color: #fff !important;
}


/* accent2 */
._formRoot * ._button,
._formRoot * ._button:hover,
.follow-button,
.follow-button *,
.new > ._buttonPrimary._shadow::before,
.mention {
    background-color: var(--accent2) !important
}

.follow-button,
.follow-button *,
.new > ._buttonPrimary._shadow::before,
._formRoot * ._button,
._formRoot * ._button:hover,
.mention,
.mention *,
._button.post *,
._button.post:hover * {
    color: var(--accent2Fg) !important;
}

.mention {
    text-decoration-color: var(--accent2Fg) !important;
}

.active *,
._button.item:hover *,
.item.index:hover *,
.pxhvhrfw > button[aria-selected="true"],
.pxhvhrfw > button:hover {
    color: var(--accent2) !important;
}

/* accent */
._button.primary:hover,
.clear.tabs::before,
.noteTag,
.hashtag,
button._button.fade *,
button._button.showLess *,
button._button.submit,
.block-button,
._block.main,
.user-card,
.user-card > .title,
.title > .username * {
    background-color: var(--accent) !important;
}

button._button.fade:hover *,
button._button.showLess:hover * {
    background-color: var(--accentDarken) !important;
}

button._button.fade *,
button._button.showLess *,
button._button.submit,
.block-button,
._block.main,
.user-card,
.user-card > .title,
.title > .username *,
.noteTag,
.hashtag,
.hashtag *,
.fields *,
.description * > a,
.fields * blockquote,
button._button.fade:hover *,
button._button.showLess:hover * {
    color: var(--accentFg) !important;
}

.info,
.cw,
.url-preview {
    color: var(--accent) !important;
}

.fields *,
.description * > a,
.noteTag,
.hashtag {
    text-decoration-color: var(--accentFg) !important;
}
.fields * .mention *,
.fields * .mention,
.description * .mention *,
.description * .mention {
    text-decoration-color: var(--accent2Fg) !important;
    color: var(--accent2Fg) !important;
}

/* not white */
.cw,
.url-preview {
    background-color: var(--notWhite) !important;
}

/* bg */
.pxhvhrfw > button:hover {
    background-color: var(--bg) !important;
}


/* border stuff */
.active *,
._button.item:hover *,
.item.index:hover *,
.active.item,
.pxhvhrfw > button[aria-selected="true"],
.pxhvhrfw > button:hover,
.mention {
    border-color: var(--accent2) !important;
}

.noteTag,
.hashtag,
.cw,
.url-preview {
    border: var(--accent) !important;
}

._formRoot * .input,
.adhpbeou._formBlock,
._formRoot * .info {
    border: var(--postFg) !important;
}

.mention,
.noteTag,
.hashtag {
    padding: 5px !important;
}

.rrevdjwu,
._formRoot,
.adhpbeou._formBlock,
.ssazuxis._gap {
    padding: 10px;
}

.mention,
.noteTag,
.hashtag,
.active.item,
.cw,
.url-preview,
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.pxhvhrfw > button:hover,
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.adhpbeou._formBlock,
._formRoot * .info {
    border-style: solid !important;
    border-width: 1px !important;
}

.rrevdjwu,
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.adhpbeou._formBlock,
.ssazuxis._gap,
.mention,
.noteTag,
.hashtag,
.active.item,
.cw,
.url-preview,
.pxhvhrfw > button[aria-selected="true"],
.pxhvhrfw > button:hover {
    border-radius: 10px !important;
}

.previews,
.follow-button,
.block-button {
    border: none !important;
}


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article,
.rrevdjwu,
._formRoot,
.ssazuxis._gap,
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._formRoot * .info,
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}

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it's been a while since i wrote things on this blog. everyone on cohost is making blogs and setting up rss feeds and everything right now, so im doing the same again.

i think blogs are nice. i hope to post more often on here! about all sorts of stuff!
sometimes i find it hard to do. i have a lot of things i want to share but also a lot of anxiety
hopefully i'll overcome that anxiety and start posting uninhibited about all the things i care about. if i do, you can expect me to post about learning japanese in the coming month. and then something else will consume all my excitement and i'll post about that. maybe there will be some communist ramblings, who knows! but first i must overcome my biggest weakness…

this is my first time drawing in. A Long Time.

i have a lot of anxiety around it for some reason! so i was really proud of myself when i finally managed to pull up that drawing tablet and draw a real thing from start to finish. i want to draw a lot more and get better at it!!!

a lot of the stuff i struggled with last time has gotten natural. i played wonderwall to my girlfriend. im getting the hang of this.

this weekend i want to watch more of the justinguitar lessons. i like them. the way i've been learning so far is just by trying to practice a little every day, and when i feel like it and i have time, i watch the next justinguitar lesson. sometimes i just have like 10 minutes to practice, and then i feel more like just picking up the guitar and practicing the chords i know, switching between them, playing i am just a fish, etc.

my fingers still get p owie after each time i practice, but that'll get better with time i'm sure.

anyways! that's it for now! i was planning on putting a video of me playing at the end of this post, but i'm too lazy to record one rn. so you'll have to wait till next time.

check it out

a small cheat sheet for tuki tiki, with all the grammar and vocabulary on one page!

i got a guitar today! i'm really excited to learn how 2 play

it's not my first time, when i was 11 i first started learning to play an acoustic guitar. i had a really nice teacher in elementary school (who was also p scary) who taught me how to play!
later on i began taking classes, and i was learning a lot! at around 15 i quit the lessons though, bc of being Really Depressed. then i began a cycle of endlessly just trying to learn songs by looking up tabs online but never really learning anything new bc i was barely challenging myself.

but! i really miss playing guitar and i think i could make more progress if i actually like. challenge myself to learn new things. learn music theory. etc. (in guitar lessons there was an attempt to teach music theory, but it was sort of disguised behind forcing us to play classical guitar and the sudden shift really upset me so i didnt really learn anything… now i understand what a fool i was..)

anyways. that's enough rambling about my origin story and stuff.

actually beginning to learn

i got a cheap electric guitar kit from gear4music. its cheap, but i think the quality is fine for me right now, and i couldnt afford spending a million on guitar rn.

so! the learning! ive been following courses on justinguitar.com. i saw a lot of recommendations for these courses online, so i wanna follow them and try out playing songs i like on the side.

so far ive not gotten that far. i got to the lessons that cover the D and A chords.
it's really strange playing guitar after all this time. i used to be able to play the D really easily before, but now i find myself frequently messing it up. it's difficult! and my fingers hurt! but ive learned this once before, i know i can do it again. and i already think im slowly getting better at that D chord.

i also struggle A LOT with holding the guitar properly. i think there are some habits that i still have from acoustic back when i was 15, so i keep feeling like the guitar is just like… too thin. since acoustic is muuuch thicker. but im sure i'll get used to that!

anyways.. yeah! thats it. i wanna keep updating here with my progress while i learn. maybe i'll upload some videos too. who knows. i do…….

my old website was cool and all but i just wanted something new. im very happy with the new so far.

this website uses nuxt content to handle most things, which makes it a lot easier for me to add new stuff to the site. i can make this post by just writing a markdown file! i can add new photos to the photography section by jsut writing a short yaml file! all of it is like that and its nice.

with new website, i also expanded my blog a little. it used to just be for diary-ish entries like this one, but i want to post more! so i moved the blorbo section from the old website to this website's blog, i added a programming section (which currently only has an advent of code post taken from a series of cohost posts), i wanna add a games section, for talking about games i've been playing and thoughts about them adn stuff. speakingof thoughts, i wanna add a section of the blog for writing about my thoughts on whatever issues i want.

i ujst wanna be able to write whenever i want! and itll be easier now than it was on the old website which is rly nice!!!

with new website comes exciting new possibilities

(still expect me to not post anything at all for several months at a time tho…)

i met a kitty. everything was so green this day. i think the picture with the stairs is one of my favourite pictures i've taken!

the rain was so nice this day

i went on a long walk this month. my feet hurt but i met birds

explored germany

explored florida

oh boy its been ALMOST A MONTH since i last updated this!!!! that was a close one!

the day kinda just started (it is 10:00) but its a GOOD DAY.

my sleep schedule has been SUPER fucked lately. but i FINALLY got some got damn sleep at a reasonable hour yesterday. IT WAS SO NICE

before last night i was falling asleep at like!! 10:00 and waking up at like 18:00. that does things to you…

so far today i've not done much but i did finally take out the trash and go to the store!

i forgot the store opens late on saturdays so i was there like one and a half hours too early but i took the opportunity to go for a walk until the store opens.

the mountains around me looked soo pretty the way the sun was hitting them but i didnt have my camera with me to take a pic :( but! i did have my flip phone (i was listening to some rly good music on it)

so u get flip phone pics of the pretty mountain lol

i am just so overall happy today :))

it feels like today is gonna be such a good day

this is the main character of a game i'm working on! work on the game has been on pause for a long while cuz i have so much else to do, but it's a game i'm really excited to work on more. the game is tentatively called "plant bonds" and would be a roguelike centered around friendship

im switching to programmer dvorak!!

im typing really slowly and it feels like learning a new language, but its honestly really fun to use

on qwerty touch typing always felt super awkward and unintuitive, but on dvorak all the motions are just like nice and fun! im gonna write a longer entry about how much i like dvorak later when i can type faster, right now it would take too long eotueonuho (dvorak keysmash)

im definitely obsessed tho its just so fun to type with!!!

i took these the day after i got my sony dsc-wx500. playing with the exposure in the picture with the river was cool

i love snow. also ACAB

i made these containers for trainyard trouble! you can read more about trainyard trouble here

i drew this one for untitled plant game

o lukin e ona (check it out)

this website generates a brand new word for the conlang toki pona, along with example sentences and definitions! i mostly made this to teach myself more rust, and i figured combining the programming language im learning with my special interest would make me learn much faster! here's how it works:

the word

toki pona has a p predictable syllable structure:

CV(n)

where C is a consonant, V is a vowel, and n is the letter n. every syllable consists of a consonant, then a vowel, and then optionally the letter n.

in addition, the consonant in the first syllable of a word can be omitted, and the sounds wu, wo, ji, ti, nn, and nm are illegal.

with this syllable structure it's really easy to generate valid words through not that much code! the way i did it, i stored the previous letter while generating, and then had lists of letters which were allowed depending on the previous letter (list of letters always allowed, list of letters not allowed after n, etc.). and thats it! i made this because i thought it'd be really easy and i was right!

one last step i do is that i check the generated word against a list of already existing words, and redo the generation if the word generated already exists. i figured the website would be more fun if it was always a plausible nimi sin, and not slapping a new definition to an old word!

the example sentences

the example sentences were also really simple because of how toki pona works. every word in toki pona can go anywhere in the sentence, and subjects, verbs, etc. are marked by particles. so really all the generation has to do is decide which parts of speech will be present, and then how many words will be in each section, and then just create a sentence like "(x random words) (particle) (x random words) (particle) (x random words)"! the sentences won't always have an obvious meaning, but they are grammatical, so if u think hard enough abt it u can come up with something.

the definitions

for the definitions i just took a bunch of random merriam webster dictionary definitions, stuffed them into a markov chain, and done. it works surprisingly well, though obviously the definitions will usually be pretty nonsensical.

i also added some jokes into the text file i feed to the markov chain, so sometimes it'll generate things like "loss.jpg", or "car" (a joke based on the frequency at which beginners would propose new words for "car" at the time)

its a game i made for a godot wild jam with zoe! the theme was "combine".

i really wanna remake this one sometime. we were using godot 4 before it was really stable at all, so we couldn't do web exports, and there's lots of small little bugs and glitches i'd love to fix. they keep me up at night.

also, when we first released the game we got a lot of confused comments from people who didn't quite understand the game; "why am i suddenly losing on day 3? what happened? i don't understand!!", so i updated it after the jam was over to ease the difficulty curve more, hoping it'd make the game easier to understand. in retrospect though, i think i eased the difficulty curve TOO much. whenever i play the game nowadays i find it impossible to lose, whereas before it was a nice 5 minute game where getting a high score was really satisfying. so i really wanna remake this one and figure out a middle-ground between the two

on another note: im really proud of the art i did for this one! i think there's some containers i'd want to redo if i had the chance, but i'm proud of most of them

it's available on itch.io!

a game where you take care of a very talkative plant.

i made it with zoe for procjam 2021! the theme was "growth". we had a lot of ideas for it, but most of them weren't ultimately fulfilled. someday i really wanna work more on the game and add lots more cute features. but either way im happy w the game! its nice watching the plant grow, and zoe did a great job on the music!

it's available on itch.io

the first pixel art i ever drew! i made it while teaching myself godot by making a game i called "goblbin slayer" (named after a game i made in scratch when i was 13). the game was just for my own learning purposes, so no one else will ever see it…

this is also the closest i've ever come to drawing a fursona. someday i'll draw a real fursona.

this is a drawing of my cat, tiara. she likes to become reallly long